A New Beginning

Over the past couple of months I have been making some changes in my life to find inner peace and peace within my family and my relationships with the people in my family. My relationship with Steve has greatly improved and we are happy.. which is SO important to me. We are very good friends and very close and I want to be even better friends and even closer, as we used to be. He is a wonderful man and a great father.. he LOVES his son so much. You can see the pride in his eyes when he looks at Nico, and that makes my heart swell and puts a smile on my face. I am so blessed.. having four beautiful children and a fabulous man in my life.


Steve and I married in March of 2008, during a rough time in my life, when I truly should not have been thinking marriage at all, as I was not even over my ex, but I KNEW Steve was the best man for me and loved me more than any man ever has. He had to struggle with my heart's confusion and took me as I was, knowing what was going on.. and he told me that someday I would be over my past and I would love him back, the way he deserved. Unfortunately, it took me a very long time to get past it all. He tried to hang in there, yet I got worse.. and I divorced him in 2009. About 4 months or so later we got back together and tried to make it work again. We definitely had our hard times and ups and downs.. mostly downs. Suddenly, out of nowhere I was better.. past the old stuff and ready to love again. By this time I had hurt Steve and he was more distant and not as ready to be the way he used to be, and I cannot blame him. He finally came around to the idea and here we are. Now, although we are divorced, we are a FAMILY. We love each other and our children and we are working day by day to become closer and be the family we know we CAN be. Fun, happy and at complete peace with our past and ready to move forward.. together!


I have also decided to become closer to God and be a better role model, sorta-wife, and mother. I planned to go to church this past Sunday, but that did not work out, due to a lack of sleep and the friend that was supposed to be going with me did not end up wanting to go. Instead I spent over an hour doing a Holy Bible crossword, using my bible to look up the answers and learn a little from it. Another friend said she would go with me to church next Sunday, so I will attempt to go again. I can't wait. :) God has blessed me with love and family and it's time I returned the favor and love HIM and go to church.


I plan to use this blog as a journal for my thoughts, venting, and sharing with friends a peek inside my life. Enjoy my journey with me, if you'd like.

Tonya (Twistypoo)